reAding my last post make me feel stupid

i havent write for so long....

and after so long, i am ashamed to admit that i am not getting better
i nearly being sent to rumah bahagia ( somehow i think my place is there, im just crazy)
i tried commit suicide but to no success..

i feel suicide every day
i need a doctor! but my parents dun seem to understand or wan to admit that their daughter have problem

i need a doctor to save me! or maybe sum ear who really understand and care and non judgemental

i feel suicidal daily. i wanted to die
nothing in this world make me want to live..
sometime how i wish i am an orphan , an outsider who know no one, so i could easily just die n fade....

peoples only know how to get angry at me when i said i feel down n constantly wan to commit suicide

call me weakling or anything u like
i hate to be like this
i have weird dream, scary dream every time i sleep that im scared to go to sleep but what do they know????

now am trying to live to i dunno..
oh GOD, why dun answer my prayer n just take me away~?
i want like hell to be rotten in hell btw...

sitting here anxiously waiting

waiting for someone to come
try to log in to my blog, n realize i actually dy forgot my password
i hvnt blog for so long

-_-

sitting here ...

sitting here waiting for my next class..
i realized that i hv neglected my blog for so long.
i dunno how to write anymore ...
=/

break up

sorry for hurting you, but i just can never love anymore ... not now at least....

sorry blog for neglecting you. hoho. ahaks

im busy lately
busy giving tuition, busy dating... ahaks
to teach a naughty kid really test my patients... >.<
:( ANYONE CAN OFFER PARENTAGE ADVICE?

my life at upsi..

while all of the same batch with me is around the malaysia doing their pratical, i stuck at upsi trying to finish my study.

its can be very discouraging sometime, but life have to move on

right now, im very much on negative mood, so i dun wan to make my blog more negative, so i gonna sign out :P